Saturday, November 30, 2013

Here goes nothing...

 This topic has been burned in my heart/mind/soul/thoughts for quite some time now. This topic is the reason I felt led to start up this blog. This topic could offend some. I assure you-that is not my intention. This topic is a passion of mine and I cannot and will not keep quiet on it any longer.
What on earth is happening to Christian marriages?

I hate seeing people break up; in movies, tv, or real life. I'm still not over the whole Jennifer Aniston/Brad Pitt thing. I don't think anyone enjoys breakups...they hurt...that's why the word 'break' is in them. My heart aches when I see people I know and love (specifically fellow believers) deciding to end their marriage. My heart has been aching a lot lately.

What is happening? Why are people just giving up??? I'm not talking about people in abusive or dangerous relationships, I'm talking about the people who it seems that when it all boils down, they 'just don't feel like it' any more.

This is something that I came across on pinterest. I think it says a lot:

 
That's not love.
That's infatuation and lust.

Are we so conditioned by movies and television to believe that it isn't love unless it feels like a romantic comedy?
I'm so sorry to blow the lid of a few myths that are out there but I'm still gonna do it:

Noah and Allie (The Notebook) are not real.
Samantha Baker and Jake Ryan (Sixteen Candles) are not real.
Jack and Rose (Titanic) are sooo not real.
And as much as it pains me to admit, Jim and Pam (The Office) are not real.
Those couples are just a few of thousands that people *sigh* over and wish that their current relationship could emulate that kind of 'love'. Their situations are not real. The romance they experience is to sell tickets or hook viewers. It isn't love.

Love is a military wife taking care of her husband after he's been terribly injured in the line of duty.
Love is getting up in the middle of the night taking care of a puking, feverish child.
Love is forgetting your own wants and needs and putting someone else first.
Love is getting that terribly unhealthy treat at the grocery store because you know it'll make your significant other smile.
Love is sticking it out when funds are low and tensions are high.
Love is listening to someone. Maybe not even speaking. Just listening.
I could go on, but 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 says it perfectly:

"Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things."

Another verse I'd like to point out is Colossians 3:14 "And above these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony." Some days, it's easy to love others, other days, it most definitely is not easy. That is why we are told to put on love. It is a choice. Not just with our spouses, with everyone.

Do not get me wrong: I am not saying that love has to be mundane/ordinary/and just plain no fun. Any marriage can be overflowing with joy. The key ingredient is God. Seeking to put God first in your life will never be something you'll regret.

Some people have probably been in an unsatisfying relationship for a long time. I've seen people leave their spouses because they weren't feeling fulfilled and they needed to pursue what was best for them and their happiness/health/creativity/whatever. Or maybe they just decided that the person they thought was "the one" suddenly didn't feel like "the one" anymore so they now must find a new "the one".
Here's where I get a little blunt.
Two things:
1. If you are seeking to feel satisfied and fulfilled and the only place you are looking is inside yourself or in the flawed superficial world around you, you will be searching and feeling unsatisfied for the rest of your life. We are not put on this earth because we are super cool and the world needed us, we were put on this earth to serve and glorify our Savior and Creator. This is HIS movie, we are extras in the background that are only on screen for 1/8 of a second...if even that long. (Read the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan)
2. The idea of "the one" is so flawed its ridiculous. Believers, if you married him/her, he/she became "the one". Hands down. Trust me, you're not going to feel singing-with-woodland-creatures/dancing-on-furniture in love every second of every day of your marriage. Some days are facepalm-take-a-hot-bath/ go-tinker-in-the-garage-for-a-while days.

I think as a society it has become all too acceptable to quit something that isn't exactly what was hoped for. Leaving marriage for such trivial reasons is a bit like quitting school because nobody spontaneously broke out into song every ten minutes. Marriage takes work! Sometimes problems can't be solved in a half-hour time slot.

I know that there are some of you out there whose marriages are truly struggling. I absolutely do not mean to make light of that. I totally can empathize. I implore you, if you aren't at a place where you even want to try to 'put on love' to your spouse, talk to God. Dedicate (or rededicate) your life to God and He will do things you never even thought possible :)!!! Having a good relationship with God is the foundation for everything. Not just marriage. LIFE...life more abundant at that! I had to come to this point in my life/our marriage not too long ago.
Two years ago, at this exact time of year, Drew and I were separated.  God did things during our separation that can only be described as miraculous!!! Before this separation came though, things needed to change. I had to fight for my marriage.  My first step was to grow in my relationship with God. I reached out to godly women I knew for encouragement and advice. I also got some good reading material on the subject of marriage. Reading the Bible and drawing nearer to God saved my life and saved our marriage. I can't say it enough: God changed everything. If you or anyone you know needs someone to help, recommend some good reading material, provide encouragement, or even just listen, seriously, I'd be more than happy to help however I can. I can't fix everything, but I know of a Great Physician that is in the business of changing/healing hearts and lives. (Jesus:D!!!)

Drew and I recently took a class that was offered at our church called The Art of Marriage. (If you've got the opportunity to take it, I highly recommend it!!! Such great material, such great conversations.) There were videos that went along with each lesson that had real couples sharing their marriage story. One couple in particular stood out: a couple who was set to divorce and decided to try marriage counseling. The husband desperately wanted to save his marriage and had turned his life over to God and it changed him in such a wonderful way. The wife was a Christian as well, but she was just 'over it'. She said the only reason she even agreed to go to counseling was so that she could say she went, but it still just didn't work out. In one of their counseling sessions, their pastor asked her, "Do you believe that Christ died on the cross to save you from your sins, and rose three days later?" She said, "Well, yes." The pastor replied, "But you don't think He can save your marriage?"

Believer, God created marriage to be a beautiful thing. I could write a million (imperfect!) blog entries on this subject, but for now, I leave you with this personal proof:

If God could not save marriages, Drew and I would long be broken up, and this beautiful proof that miracles do happen would not exist:

 
Baby Jude <3
 
 
Thank you so much for bearing with me on this :).
Love,
Lauren




Sunday, November 24, 2013

Philippians 1:20

"as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death."

We've got a problem. I'VE got problems. I can't keep biting my tongue...and I don't think I should be anymore. I feel like I've been called for a purpose. I don't exactly know what that is or what it looks like yet, but for a while now, I've felt that God was trying to tell me something...telling me to write. Telling me to use my 'voice' for a purpose that I don't even fully know yet (and possibly never will). So here I am, and I've got a lot to say. So now I'd like to make it official: I'm coming out of the spiritual closet.

I am a Christian.

What even qualifies me to be writing a blog about God??? To be honest, I've got a computer and I know how to type. End of resume.

Am I some super amazing perfect woman? No, and I never will be. But I want to strive to be holy and to follow what God has for me. I am someone who has learned so many lessons the hard way. I'm stubborn, angry, and selfish. At the same time, I feel as though the lessons I've learned enable me to possibly come along side of a friend and help them thru a difficult situation. You name it, I've probably dealt with it: from addiction, marriage struggles, eating disorders, death of loved ones, to various sin issues. Bottom line: I have a lot of love to give, and I love helping people. I'm a good listener, I will keep things told to me to myself, and I try my best to be a giving friend.

Do I have an academic qualifications? Well, no. See, on paper, to the world, I'm not really worth much. What's beautiful/humbling/comforting about God is that He doesn't require a degree or a Mensa member IQ to follow Him. Quite lucky for me:). I went to a Christian school K-12 and then attended a Bible college for one year and chose to not go back and complete my degree. I do not have a degree in English or writing or anything of the sort. The only degree I received in college was my Child Development Associates Degree (which has since expired).

In short, I'm a stay at home mom, super flawed woman who just happens to have a computer and feels called to write. Still reading? Thank you:).

What am I hoping to achieve? Fame? Notoriety? Nope!
I am hoping that this will enable me to reach out to others in a way I never thought possible. I want to help point others to Christ and show them how wonderful a Savior we serve! I am also hoping that this will be a tool for myself in my own spiritual walk. I want to learn and grow from this. I want to dive into Gods word and see things from His perspective. I'm thirsty for more!!! I am so excited to see what God has to show me thru this.

This isn't going to be a 'fire and brimstone; you're a filthy sinner going to hell' kind of thing. I want to love and encourage. There are enough "Christians" out there promoting hate.

I know this will be a challenge in many ways. I am starting this with the goal of writing at least once a week. Accountability would be welcome:)! Topic suggestions would be welcome as well:)! I know that speaking on this isn't necessarily popular and could set me up to lose some friends or to be criticized. That is something that is scary and overwhelming but I have to be ok with it. *Deep Breath*

The blog is called PARRESIA- my new favorite word (and possibly tattoo one day, haha!). Parresia is a Greek word that is found in the New Testament that is often used to describe the attitude that the disciples of Christ should have in sharing the gospel with others. It means "courage" "confidence" "boldness" "assurance" "fearless public speaking" etc. I would greatly appreciate prayer and encouragement in this new endeavor.

I want to become bold. God has done so much for me. How much more can I give Him?

If you have any questions, please ask them! I want this to be interactive! POSITIVE and interactive:). Also, if you've got stories of blessings or things that God has done in your life, please please PLEASE share them! My favorite things ever online are those "Restored Faith in Humanity" stories and photos. God has done some amazing things in my life and I plan to share them and I'd LOVE to hear things like that from you.

Thank you so much.
Lauren